Time to add a bit of magic to Monday!
I discovered something about myself. I had a revelation. Every morning, I wake up with a list of things in my head. A list of what I have to do, what I should do, a list of expectations. If I could do this…this…this…and this…I will have succeeded. I will not be a failure. I will be worth something.
Then I don’t…I don’t do one thing on the list…I don’t complete as much of a project as I wanted…I don’t live up to those high expectations.
And I fail.
I go to bed, preparing my list for the next day, I will do all the shoulds. I will do better. Be better.
And fail again.
I began to look at what I did do each day. WHAT I DID DO. Well, that put a new spin on my outlook. Maybe I SHOULD (Haha) stop trying to be some perfect image of me and be me.
I like me. I’m pretty cool.
Spring break was marvelous. I had a great time with my family and the voice in my head constantly telling me to be perfect, to do all the things, went away.
When I got home, the flood of words returned.
AND I WAVED MY MAGIC WAND AND SILENCED THEM.
I don’t need a head full of shoulds hounding me all day. I don’t need to have a mind full of demands to be perfect as I fall asleep. I’m not perfect. I don’t wanna be! Perfect is boring. Perfect is stupid. All the should dos…I magicked them into oblivion.
I will do what I need to do. At the end of the day, I will be happy and proud of my choices.
THIS IS THE MAGIC OF LIFE, OF LIVING. Do what you do and be proud.